Can You?

Can I trust that what I have to say is good enough without anyone online confirming it for me?

I want to feel seen. I want to feel heard. I want to feel validated. It’s all ego. But sending my words and photos out to cyberspace takes away my own ability to see, hear, and validate myself. When everyone in the world has a podium, what makes me so special? If I took away my podium, would I still believe in myself? 

I’m learning how to piece together my thoughts and experiences creatively for myself - not to please, impress, or transform other people. When I write something and post it to a blog, people may read it. They may not. They may like it. They may hate it. It may impact someone. It may flop like a fish. I don’t know either way. There is great freedom in this. 

I don’t need my life to be big, I need it to be honorable and authentic. I don’t need 50 people to take a yoga or fitness class with me, I need a small handful of people who know and trust me, who really want to be there. 

We were not meant to keep our energy so thinly spread. I do not have the space to take care of myself, to show up in my relationships, to succeed at my job, to live honorably, AND keep up with hundreds of people I don’t really know online. When it gets too noisy, when I’m paddling frantically to keep pace, when I’m spending hours following people I’ve said one sentence to - I lose my ability to be myself. Removing myself from the online space has allowed me to more actively participate in my life.

So I ask one last time before signing off of this thing -

Can you trust that what you have to say is good enough without anyone online confirming it for you?